One who carries his cross on his shoulder/ to bear one's cross
Figuratively: brings disaster upon himself with his own hands; or: his fate is sealed for ruin (originally: one who carries the gallows or crossbeam of execution on his shoulder).
("And Abraham took the wood of the burnt offering - as if he were carrying his cross on his shoulder, and he took in his hand the fire and the food, said Rabbi Hanina, why is the sacrificial offering called the food according to the law of those who eat, and Rabban Imri says that all the food that Israel eats in this world is not eaten except by virtue of the food that is eaten. And they went "The two of them will be united, one to tie and the other to tie, one to slaughter and the other to slaughter" - at the beginning of Rava (Vilna) Parashah and see Parashah Nu)
Translation
Expression (Hebrew)
טוֹעֵן צְלוֹבוֹ בִּכְתֵפוֹ
Definition (Hebrew)
בְּהַשְׁאָלָה: מֵבִיא אֶת הָאָסוֹן עַל עַצְמוֹ בְּמוֹ יָדָיו. אוֹ: גּוֹרָלוֹ נֶחֱרַץ לַאֲבַדּוֹן (בַּמָּקוֹר: נוֹשֵׂא אֶת עַמּוּד הַתְּלִיָּה אוֹ הַצְּלִיבָה עַל כְּתֵפוֹ).
("וַיִּקַּח אַבְרָהָם אֶת עֲצֵי עוֹלֶה- כְּזֶה שֶׁהוּא טוֹעֵן צְלוֹבוֹ בִּכְתֵפוֹ, וַיִּקַּח בְּיָדוֹ אֶת הָאֵשׁ וְאֶת הַמַּאֲכֶלֶת, אָמַר ר' חֲנִינָא לָמָּה נִקְרֵאת סַכִּין מְאַכֶּלֶת לְפִי שֶׁמֻּכְשָׁר אוֹכְלִים, וְרַבָּנָן אִמְרֵי כָּל אֲכִילוֹת שֶׁיִּשְׂרָאֵל אוֹכְלִים בָּעוֹלָם הַזֶּה אֵינָם אוֹכְלִים אֶלָּא בִּזְכוּת אוֹתָהּ הַמַּאֲכֶלֶת .וַיֵּלְכוּ שְׁנֵיהֶם יַחְדָּו זֶה לַעֲקֹד וְזֶה לֵעָקֵד, זֶה לִשְׁחֹט וְזֶה לִשָּׁחֵט"-בְּרֵאשִׁית רַבָּה (וִילְנָא) פָּרָשַׁת וַיַּרְא פָּרָשָׁה נוּ)